The TRUTH about having a chronic illness.

The truth is if you see me walking down the street I don’t look sick. Most days anyway. I am a fast walker, an avid hiker and I love to ride my bike. There is nothing that I can’t do. On most days. Even on some of the days where I am powering down the street I am feeling nauseous and dizzy but I am tough! I can handle a little bit of nausea and dizziness. There are other days, usually the day after I take Methotrexate for my rheumatoid arthritis where I feel much worse. I feel incredibly nauseous and dizzy. I experience diarrhea, stomach pain and vomiting. Then there are other days where my joints flare. They become stiff, swollen and very painful. I find these days very frutrating! I am a go go person. I want to be outside experiencing life. When I am in the house I am getting things done! I am NOT one to sit around. So when my joints flare and I have no choice but to sit I start to get depressed. My freedom of movement is taken from me. My freedom from pain is taken from me. I would say that I am affected by this likely more than the average person. The average person is happy to sit and watch TV and relax. I do NOT watch TV. I am very much feel the need to be a part of the world not sitting back and watching it. Another thing I find frustrating about this disease is the medication I take to control it surpresses my immune system so I get infections easier than other people. That means I get sick more often. What is also frustrating is some peoples inability to understand what I go through. I am expected to act like a normal healthy person because I look that way and most of the time act that way. So when I am taken down for a while people just seem to think I am being lazy or I that I should be able to suck it up and just get r done! For the last week I have been feeling very unwell. I have the chills then the sweats. I feel exhausted and more dizzy and nauseous then usual. I am also going through some emotional stuff right now as well which always seems to make matter worse when it comes to my health. I had to take some time off from work because of my health and a friend of mine told me basically that I need to suck it up and go to work anyway. It is attitudes like this that I find frustrating. I would love nothing more than to just be able to suck it up! In fact I do suck it up, almost everyday I feel unwell to some degree and I suck it up and do what I need to do. But there are times when sucking it up is just not an option. For me to accept this fact of life has been difficult and it only frustrates me more when the people around me can’t understand. Sometimes I am sick. That is just the way it is. Sometimes I need to take time to rest. That is just the way it is. I am not being lazy. I am not slacking. I am sick and I need to take the time to rest, just like the doctor tells me to. I only wish there were more people out there who understood these things. Who understands that I am not an normal healthy person even though it seems that way most of the time. Sometimes all I need is a little bit of love and understanding to make my world a better place. So I can take the time I need to get healthy and be able to get back to life..when I am ready!


The Truth about Marijuana

What is the real reason Marijuana is illegal? Does the government really believe that harm will come to us by using marijuana? Or is the reason for its illegality far more sinister? If we look back over the history of Hemp we find so many beneficial uses for it. For its ability to be made into textiles, paper, fuel, food and also its many medicinal uses. It is a completely renewable resource, unlike the use of trees (which takes hundreds of years to renew) and fossil fuels. After reading about the history of this product it becomes clear that  the only reasons it was made illegal was because of conspiracy and propaganda. Major influences from the Pulp and Paper industry as well as the Petrochemical industry were directly involved in their elected capacity as policy makers in government, taking advantage of their position and abusing the trust of their power they conspired to protect themselves and their resource rape business with creating laws and PR campaigns that demonized the use of active Marijuana to abolish the ZERO potency Hemp products as well, since they would if they remained free potentially replace the entire Petrochemical industry and habit of harvesting trees for Pulp and Paper.

In 1938 the Mayor of New York, Fiorello La Guardia, commissioned the Greater Medical Association of New York to study the effects and use of marijuana. Their report was published in 1944, and remains one of the most comprehensive studies done on the health and social effects of marijuana smoking. Among other things, the La Guardia report found that:

the behaviour of the smoker is of a friendly, sociable character, and aggressiveness and belligerence are not commonly seen.

The study also found no relationship between crimes of violence and marijuana. The recommendations of this report were ignored.

Recently it was discovered that marijuana cures certain types of cancer. Don’t believe me? Google: marijuana cures cancer. The Pharmaceutical industry does not want you to know about this. You could save your own life for free without the need for costly pharmaceutical drugs which have many adverse side effects.

I myself use medicinal marijuana for chronic pain and inflammation caused by Psoriatic arthritis that I have suffered with for over twenty years and has immobilized me to a wheel chair twice. Since discovering the use of medicinal marijuana my quality of life has improved greatly. I am able to enjoy hiking, swimming, sometimes biking and even cleaning my house pain reduced, pain reduced means I can move around with less stiffness, inflammation and pain in my joints.

I am a strong believer that Marijuana should NOT be illegal. We as human beings should have the right to grow any plant without interference from any political system! It should not be up to the government to tell us what we can and can not grow. Marijuana should be allowed to be grown naturally by the people who choose to use this miracle plant as medicine.